i burned thru e dark disciple trilogy in my span of 2 consecutive cos duties. esp when encik was around. reading was e best form of escapism. draw little attention to yourself, take your mind off the current situation and just Fade into another reality~ i learnt that from the graveyard book! =) but bleh the trilogy wasn't that good leh. i wonder if i've been spoilt by neil gaiman.
anyway. capture my memories. cos i think in time, they'll fade... the nostalgic ache, the bittersweet longings, the terrible conflict between hope and knowledge. i think it's wrong to say that time heals. it's more like... time numbs. yea fazli was right in using that word. time numbs the wound. the scars always remain, but at least the pain is gone.
i really wonder why i feel so much tho. i didn't even feel the ache of loss and parting that much during our own prom or grad night. but as i told ben, perhaps those events were buffered by the significant probability of hope in the future. it's only 9 weeks. and i'm not even super close friends with them or anything. i'm just their cmd. but i guess it's because i'm their cmd that this is where it all ends.
it's like... everytime i hear the new songs in my ipod that i got to know from that kbox session, i think of them... the way wenjun dances, daryl being high, elson and his retarded nonsense, weiwen's gay poses... so many more of their idiosyncrasies that are like little stars in the dark gloom of loss. cos while there is still a slim chance that they will keep in touch, the possibility of the cmds remaining as friends with them are almost zero. and i'm being hopeful in saying 'almost'. haiz... ben calls this the 'grieving beauty of human connections'. so elegantly phrased. even i myself said that sadness "... is the emotion that reaches out most to the deep recesses of our hearts and stirs the strings of our souls, leaving behind a resonating ripple of memory and experience. " oh well. worst vice is advice. stop indulging in cliches.
shall take the chance while they're in ocs to remove them from my blog. lolz v embarrassing if they see. i know... i once ranted that the capacity to feel should not be any indication of weakness. and i still feel that way! in fact, i view it as an indication of strength rather. which is why i write all this down. and chastise them for making fun of ppl who cry (during pop and all haha). but still... lolz if they see it'd be a LITTLE awkward.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
i burned thru e dark disciple trilogy in my span of 2 consecutive cos duties. esp when encik was around. reading was e best form of escapism. draw little attention to yourself, take your mind off the current situation and just Fade into another reality~ i learnt that from the graveyard book! =) but bleh the trilogy wasn't that good leh. i wonder if i've been spoilt by neil gaiman.
anyway. capture my memories. cos i think in time, they'll fade... the nostalgic ache, the bittersweet longings, the terrible conflict between hope and knowledge. i think it's wrong to say that time heals. it's more like... time numbs. yea fazli was right in using that word. time numbs the wound. the scars always remain, but at least the pain is gone.
i really wonder why i feel so much tho. i didn't even feel the ache of loss and parting that much during our own prom or grad night. but as i told ben, perhaps those events were buffered by the significant probability of hope in the future. it's only 9 weeks. and i'm not even super close friends with them or anything. i'm just their cmd. but i guess it's because i'm their cmd that this is where it all ends.
it's like... everytime i hear the new songs in my ipod that i got to know from that kbox session, i think of them... the way wenjun dances, daryl being high, elson and his retarded nonsense, weiwen's gay poses... so many more of their idiosyncrasies that are like little stars in the dark gloom of loss. cos while there is still a slim chance that they will keep in touch, the possibility of the cmds remaining as friends with them are almost zero. and i'm being hopeful in saying 'almost'. haiz... ben calls this the 'grieving beauty of human connections'. so elegantly phrased. even i myself said that sadness "... is the emotion that reaches out most to the deep recesses of our hearts and stirs the strings of our souls, leaving behind a resonating ripple of memory and experience. " oh well. worst vice is advice. stop indulging in cliches.
shall take the chance while they're in ocs to remove them from my blog. lolz v embarrassing if they see. i know... i once ranted that the capacity to feel should not be any indication of weakness. and i still feel that way! in fact, i view it as an indication of strength rather. which is why i write all this down. and chastise them for making fun of ppl who cry (during pop and all haha). but still... lolz if they see it'd be a LITTLE awkward.